I'm so ashamed ..................?

Try some Yam Cream. In Vitamin and supplement stores. It is a phytosterol precursor to estrogen. There is also topical estrogen cream by prescription. It's a bit expensive,but not compared to surgery. Good balanced nutrition, good hydration, and the cream will make a visible improvement. You will also need one year post-diet to see how much they fill out. After all, breasts ARE mostly ornamental fatty tissue, so you have to expect this to some extent.